God, I Need You Now More Than Ever

God, tonight you brought me to my knees. 

And I HATE it. 

The vulnerability of being downed by confusion. 

I want to be in control! 

IT IS MY LIFE! 

Why is this happening!

I don't understand, and it is so hard to trust you right now.

Please just give me SOMETHING to hold on to!

Anything.

And please God, draw me to you in and through this.

And please continue to do so for the rest of my life.

But especially over the next 5 months.

I guess that it all. I don't really know. I can't think straight right now.